Raissa

Oh man am I confused, I wish I was blessed with some sort of common sense or ability pick up on what people are putting down. Mom goes back to philly today :) Yeah Yeah!!!

I have not used this in a really long time. I was sucked into myspace, not that it matters, I don't even think any of my friends still use their live journal or any checks on mine which is fine i honestly don't really care i think im just going to use this as a venting blog. Im hoping i can hold to that because i think where i am in my life right now it would be wonderful for me to do this it would help me clear my mind and get thoughts out that normally build up in my mind and bring me down. Anyways Elbo is home right now and i love it! im having such a blast with her the only thing is that she is leaving me again. I have been having so much fun lately partying and living life im really happy with that but, i have to look past how much i messed up lately with relationships that really bothers me i just screw up all the time, i sabotage anything good going for me because i fear the sad end so much and the hurt that i don't even allow myself to experience anything wonderful. Lame , yeah i know.

i just so wasted an hour of my life here http://addictinggames.com/rainbowtrip.html



do it

sometimes other people just say it the best. and they are really cool people. these are the type of nights i live for.

Elbo and I went to Maryland on a ro-ad trip. It was good times. On the way there it only took like  4 and 1/2 hours but we totally got lost in the GHETTO! no lie. We saw lots of sketchy people. haha on the way home it took like 7 hours or something rediculous like that. We did stop once for like only an hour to go shopping, but then we sat in like crazy ass traffic forever. i put the car in park bc i was tired of holding the brake so long.   and finally the highlight of the weekend.... TOOKAH......so beautiful!!

last night lauren, rocco, and i met up with nick and ari at the drive in, we saw the middle end of House of Wax (fucked up movie) and then sahara....Wtf?! i still to this moment have no clue what it was about....i wasn't a fan of it. haha i pulled into the theater and it was already playing and we parked in the front row and i forgot to turn off my headlight hahaha i bet everyone was pissed lol oops.

 

 

wow i absolutely have a  "thing" for black eyed peas.... i can't handle it!! and it just makes me sad to think they aren't coming to pittsburgh anymore. thats a whole bunch of crap. I was just listening to some of their new album online and i know they don't fit in with my normal music but they are SO EXCELLLENT. Oh well i should really not be wasting my time online. Lauren and I are roadtripping tomorrow morning to philly. SO PUMPED!!! traffic will be a bitch though. ill be back tuesday night or so. i love my roadtrips, and you best believe ill be making lauren jam to some B.E.P.!

 

 

I wonder if i take you home would you still be in love baby?!

         Fergie ... why are you playing with my heart so ?

Black Eyed Pea's cancelled their pittsburgh show! so not even cool. i have been so pumped and excited for this concert and now they aren't coming... just rip my heart out. Fergie is like my ghetto Gwen (Gwenny Gwen Gwen)  Steffani.  This is crap they had better reschedule

anyways this past birthday was like the birthday of jewelry and anything to do with it... weird but i do have some nice new pieces to wear now. i have been sick like woah for the past 3 days like not leaving the house sick. its a nice break, just watching movies and sleeping with Bailey.

( tha hottness )

last night was perfect. all i wanted to do was go to a show and i did. it was good too. i havn't been going to enough shows lately. i wish i went to more. anyways thats about all.

naptime ... i feel like crap

Good times have been flowing. Monday, Leah and I drove out to Philly, met up with Jes for dinner and had some good times at the Wal-Mart. Tuesday we drove to the beach... Went to Donnelly's had picnics on the beach in Avalon and also Ocean City. Did some shopping in Stone Harbor. Found Frank Avalon, the creepy lil fucker that he is. Went home that night, did some shopping at the mall. Hung out with Marielle, ended up in Franconia somewhere with horses. haha saw some ufo's watched some crazy ass kids ride the horse... good times fo sho! Wednesday we went shopping with my grandma in KOP, hit up Nordstroms like woah! That night hit up my bro's joint in Doylestown and saw the nieces and nephews and my sister. Leah split with tim and his friends, went downtown. Thursday we met up with my cousin Ari did some lame shopping and then decided to go to South Street. Incredible good time. ate some Lorenzo's excellent pizza. And got a freaking $20 fine for my meter running out. that was crap. Dropped Leah and Tim off at their hotel and we went our seperate ways, i drove back to pittsburgh on friday .... it was gorgeous. Im just bummed i didn't go to the Dali exhibit at the art museum. that would have been most excellent. Overall i had a really good time!

AND... tonight my elbo came over! (LAUREN) so happy shes home finally. I can't wait to have fun this summer with her! and then hopefully go to ASU with her soon!

brushing my teeth and going to sleep




because 8 means closer to you

Totally done with school! It feels so good to have finished everything, all the finals and papers are done! I have been working a whole fat butt load! But on monday im taking a vacation kinda. Watts and I are freaking road tripping! So psyched! Tell your mom. So im tired and im totally bummed i didn't get time to even talk to sue or see her... im so freaking exhausted and just over worked. and i never called elbo back... i suck ... too much crap going on. I stoped kinda talking to certain people. don't know why. things just happen i guess and thats depressing and i wish we still talked. i wanted to post some pictures up but i cant get them to scan so maybe ill get it later. i haven't had the patience lately to sit online and talk to people so i would just suggest my cellular device as a best bet.

im going to be 19 soon and as lame as this sounds im totally wigging out over it. im like so not ready to be 19...

Ok so im going to lighten my hair sooon! i need to do it really soon bc im gettng antsy and like crawling out of my skin. i need a change. im ready for blonde again, i have been all brown and reds and almost blacks all winter. time for fun.


la la la la la la ......... take it how you want

ok so , i know i havn't updated but theres nothing to update about ever. hanging with the same people. fighting with the same people. trying to understand some people. ya know working at work and really hard at school.

why is it cold outside!? again . yo what gives.



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I FREAKING LOVE THIS WEATHER!

Its soo gorgeous out! im so glad winter is gone! Now its time to move on with life! im so pumped! i can't wait for  adventures at the drive in!  baseball games! Concerts at Starlake!  the only word to describe everything right now is BEAUTIFUL! 

last night Fish + Friend, Elizabeth and I went to the pirates game bc someone gave Elizabeth four free tickets. The seats were amazin! like right behind the dugout i guess its called we were like all the way up front! Such a good time!     

Tomorrow shall be cool, watts bomb and i are going up to visit meliss! im stoked!

 

 MWUAH!

sometimes i do things i don't really want to do. i feel like a spectator and sit back and watch myself screw up. knowing that ill regret it later but for now i like to not be happy and will do whatever it takes

i can't sleep. i have so much energy right now but this will suck bc when i do actually fall asleep i wont want to wake up. i have a lot on my mind. i think too much, all the time, sometimes i wish my brain would just chill out. and i wish my heart would chill out even more.
tonight josh finally lost to his battle with cancer. i never met him but just hearing updates through zach bothers me to know he died so young. I don't know exactly how old he was but he wasn't old enough and its just a bummer bc its so scary to think you could just die bc your body is sick and you can't really do anything more to help it. he had to have been so scared. id be scared. well i hope hes happy wherever he is.

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the other night i had some good retarded fun. i like that kind the best. its not often that i go out and really have a good time and look back on it and think , wow that was cool and just get a stupid smile on my face while i think about it.

and yeah for not bombing my psych test today

don't pay attention to me im stupid. ha . i also tend to blow people off and be a huge dickwad... my bad. im lazy and i don't feel like working at any kind of relationship anymore. this is crap crap crap crap crap crap! There are a few people i would give the time of day, and by few i mean like 2 or 3 i think they know who they are too, and they are awesome great people

what the fuck am i doing
i only wish i had died yesterday
this journal is all i have
what a waste of